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This is the internet. I don't know what to do here or who to be...

I am very loud; I jump around talking--- screaming--- on the top of my lungs. I throw my unnecessary, immature, wrong time jokes around in a second, and then I'm gone. But of course, around people who are my friends. I am actually very shy and stick in the back; I really don't want anything to do with anyone, I like staying alone, I can think about anything and everything in my mind. People freak me out.

Somehow... I always make friends. I don't go out and find people... they come to me. I guess they see something in me? I'm okay with that. Without them I wouldn't know who to burst out cussing on about what, where, how, and why... I love them. I actually need them, shadows can stick; they break me out.

But as said before, this is the internet. I don't know what to do or how to act. Four years here and I'm still lost. I think I'm coming around... I just don't know what people would think of me. I'm scared.

I love to draw and or just sketch. That's why I joined deviantART in the first place, so much ART! If you keep drawing... you get better. Everyone gets better at anything if they try to do so and try new things, I love the feeling of improving my skills. I'm not so good yet, I shall get awesome!

I mainly sketch on notebook paper at school whenever I'm bored or have an idea. Which is all the time. Digital drawing is so much easier than traditional drawing for me. I only sketch on paper, but I actually draw on my laptop. However, digital may be easier for me, but it is also stressful. The most time consuming for me has to be the "clean up" stage after I do my sloppy line arting. I go and over look everything, making sure to erase, re-do, and keep everything nice and clean. It's boring. Coloring is so fun, it takes the least amount of time.

As much as I love drawing, I go through constant art blocks throughout the weeks. It's not that I have no time to draw, I have plenty, it's just the thought of cleaning it all up, the thought of having to deal with a stupid tablet is what keeps me away. Drawing is very stressful for me these days, it's awesome but I just can't do with all the pens and whatnot.

The main thing I draw are my OCs. I have many OCs... some used more than others, but I still have lots! So, the main thing you will see here are my characters. I love each and everyone of them, they are my children.

I strive to become an author, a writer. Many books don't fascinate me, they are not set in the worlds I really like. Mainly, the books I read I read because of the characters. Just the characters, the qualities of them and stuff. I want to be able to find a book I like for everything. Not many books I've seen are like that, like what I want to see, worlds, characters, moods... Maybe I'm just picky. There are many books out there, I probably just haven't found them, but I want to write some. I have a lot of ideas; characters, plots, worlds... things float around in my head all the time.